How to fit into this world?

Panic attack

When I had to leave the school and look for a job, things are still a mess to me, I have graduated for seven months, and I’m waiting for the next insurance to come. Sometimes, a little panic rose in my mind since I feel I don’t know where I’m heading to, other people seem to adapt to this society well.

I still know little about what should I do? Although I stick to my plan, but my life still seems unreal and lots of void in my heart.

Innocent idea

If you too have the experience looking for a technical job on Internet industry, you would surely have found that job description for many jobs list out some popular tools which you were required to be good at if you were fond of that job. I guess that’s their minimum requirements. If you think you can’t live up to the requirements in industrial world and you also don’t know how to fit in this world. Then it would be painful. If your ability fits their need, you are in a great position to be hired.

However, if what they want is something you probably don’t competent with. and you still want that job? If it is not possible for you to get that job with a certain effort, then you must be a freelancer, always do the work that you were strongly driven by inner heart.

Make sure you have an overview of how things actually work in real world, how the talent are organized in this giant market.

Jeremy Howard is to rescue your life, he got succeed in an early age, then he strives to make it easier for ordinary people to live a good life, can you imagine what is he doing? He makes the technical things more easy to be accessible to most people, like what he has done in learning machine learning, he shortens the necessary course to an acceptable time cost. Visit Practical Deep Learning for Coders for detail.

From his profile on wikipedia,

Howard developed a new system for learning Chinese, which he used to develop usable Chinese language skills in just one year.

I know even though what he has achieved sounds great, it still doesn’t persuasive if I only compliment his work without taking a try with his ideas.

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Advice

My brother just told me something from the perspective of a person whose ability has been verified by authoritative people, he wants me to have a objective self-esteem of myself, knows clearly of my strength and express myself, that I should learn from my past experience, why I failed, what I should do well of I can lose my faith when I am hit by the things I have experienced, even I doesn’t answer right about the question they propose, I should have an overview of something which is logical.

Reality

You may not live up to the interviewer’s expectation
- It’s your problem
  - lack of experience of communication
  - short of experience of participating a big project
  - solid skill
  - good habit of figure problems out in real work
    - Yes, I do have, sometimes, I just ignore it to do more the important thing.
- It’s their problem
- nobody’s fault, my ability and their need doesn’t match
What I agree with improvements in myself
- they have standards and motives which I agree
  
  they inspires you to see whether you have potential to get things done and your comprehension is fine
- I keep myself be in a right mode, tried every possible way to crack the problem even I may have a clear clue at first
- I don’t easily give up an opportunity to show myself and don’t think that I should be fully prepared before participating in a real war anymore, because I should grow during every attempt
What do I recent years?
- Be a great coder, learning new things should become more and more easy like how I feel now compare to before

An embarrassment situation is some of the interview opportunity is really good for me, the interviewer has learned me from my footprints I left on the internet, they think I has a potential to take this job, yet when they talk to me face to face, I failed their expectation. Maybe I’m short of experience in work, I know little about a certain area, they saw that I became anxious when under stress, too anxious to think, that leave an unsatisfying impression.

With this limited ability, how do I behave that I can gain the opportunity?