Tiffany and Jessica

I’m extremely thrilled by a youtube channel, the owner is a lesbian couple who record their daily life, sound boring, but not true. they are extremely adorable and so talented, so smart, so brave, so thoughtful, so approachable, so passionate.

I don’t know why, their blog content has made me laugh for five days.

They have dated for 4 years, and Jessica just proposed to Tiffany recently, they are so happy together, I’m totally surprised by their life and I wonder how they keep their living-together life fresh.

Tiffany is an open-minded and outgoing girl, perhaps its because she was born and raised up in California, so she knows and experience so many new things, it can’t account all since compared to her elder sister, Shantel, who has the very different character.

Jessica and Tiffany all come from a warm family, I love their mother’s thought, is that because they are in a more forgiving atmosphere for LGBT, so they take less stress, so they behave so cool, no, they all got charming characters on their life, they are so positive to life, they are damn cool, why I use damn, I’m jealous of their cool attitude. Their mother is so happy, they have their thoughts on everything, and I love their thoughts.

When the cute couple decide to end their long-distance relationship, Tiffany moved to Jessica’s home, which is located in Chicago, at that time, Tiffany is about 16 years old, if this has happened in China, this would become awkward, even Jessica loved Tiffany so much, how do you promise that Jessica’s family members can provide a healthy and warm environment for Tiffany to live there, I mean it’s hard for people with narrow mind, they can’t handle this situation as they only know how to love their families.

The young couple got a rainbow flag beside the window of the back seat of their car, you can always see it, why do they bother to be so, that’s Tiffany and Jessica, they don’t hide themselves and be the person whom they wanna be, like they said, they didn’t wave this flag at any people’s face, they just have the freedom to show their opinion. It’s important because it let the people who are less lucky than they feel more hope for life.

How does the couple find so much happiness in their life, there seems exists an unlimited amount of happiness in their life, their life is so interesting, don’t say to me they act like that, I firmly believe their real life is similar like the part I can see from the vlog. Why? come on, it can tell from detail.

From their story, I can tell, a broken parents’ marriage won’t be a problem for a child’s healthy growth, also the sexual orientation of the parents won’t lead bad effects on their children.

I love the style of how Tiffany get along with her sister, she is a little mean as a young lady, like she stress that she is more talented than Shantel, and won’t let Shantel touch anything belongs to her, but Shantel also said, it’s okay to share Tiffany’s thing without asking her, as Tiffany will refuse her request if she asks for it. Shantel is also happy(I suddenly realize, I love the happy person.) when she is with Shantel, from her Twitter and Instagram, she married her best friend after give both to their child, Charlotte, like Tiffica (short for Tiffany and Jessica), she also has appealing personality, her love for Charlotte is impressed, she shares the lovely moment of Charlotte, I think Shantel is a young, gentle, strong within mom.

Things always happened in the way that I don’t like, I think the relationship between people is always embarrassing, at least from my experience it seems so. I want to change this fact that that is few people to whom you can say I few very comfortable around a few you.

Tiffany and Shantel seem got few friends at the beginning of their vlog, so the 2 sisters always hang out together, and do something for fun(I just realize it’s awesome to possess the ability to be fun). For me, I think they almost talk everything in life, meanwhile, they seem don’t have enough time to tell each other what they think.

I am glad that I met their channel. Visit their channel in detail:

Tiffica tay

Their mutual channel offers the most number of vlogs. However, less number of subscribers than Tiff & JESS
Tiff & Jess

Which once belong to Tiffany, now run by Tiffica.

I am sorry, Jessica, I know you once got your own channel, JessicaTayVlogs, since I have watched only a few from this channel, here I want to stress that what inspiring me most, moreover, I am not that kind of person too kind. By the way, I also visit Michelle’s channel, Everyone loves Alice.

Also, I am a little confused about will this be a problem of their relationship that Jessica gives more than Tiffany in their lives?

There is so much more I want to say, I want to depict how I feel for every single vlog, more observations about the nature in Jessica and Tiffany.

One impressive thing happened in this cute couple’s life is about gifts. Jessica rented a Tesla S3 on the birthday of Tiffany who said she is so into Tesla. Jessica surprised Tiffany to take helicopter before she proposed to her, Jessica carefully prepared so many presents to Tiffany on their dating anniversary, on Tiffany’s birthday, on every memorizable moment. She gives Tiffany a notebook which has Tiffany’s name on it. She bought her females’ clothes, and Tiffany is happy to try all of them, ‘Thanks baby, you look fucking gorgeous, you look at the road while I compliment you’ :tears:. Their words appeared in casual dialog makes me happy. Anyway, Tiffany is such a sweet girl.

Another significance is Tiffany also in deep love with Jessica.

I wonder what will the couple do when they are facing in the situation when their lives are in danger. I have watched one vlog recording when a man follows them keep arguing that they should change their abnormal sex orientation, I admire their reaction.

Watching their daily life makes me feel like that I missed my whole youth.

Paloma and Victoria

I happened to watch the video of a YouTuber(she isn’t a full-time YouTuber, she has a formal job in another career), I fall in love with her content immediately.

Why it is extraordinarily thrilling to me? I love her character, her experience, her friends and families and her relationship with Victoria.

I think she is healthy both physically and psychologically, even though she had passed through depression, some kind of self-struggling inside, it makes a more complete person.

She is attractive, her eyes and smile is impressive, As she had depression before, she received aid from America preventing suicide center, she still is an advocator for this organization and a volunteer, since she has found the true love with whom she is willing to share her trauma with her subscribers.

Paloma can speak 3 languages, she is so talented and sweet to her girlfriend, the way how she looks at Victoria, you can see the heart in her eyes.

I believe that is happiness, that some people get happiness at a period in this world and I heard their story, meanwhile, there are also some people going through hard times in their life.

Both couple got separated at last, I see no on interaction between them on Instagram and there is no update youtube video ever since .

以上的两个例子只是我的对于感情（不因为是同性之间而特殊）的思考。

在我的眼里同性恋是正常的，在我妈的眼里这是罪孽，如果我找一个同性伴侣，我妈认为那我就是在做缺德的事，这是我确认是她想的，从小我习惯了把发生在我身边的事讲给她听（现在想想，我好像对我的母亲真的没有隐私，如果她说对什么不知道那应该是信息接收上的损失），当我成年后，开始和她有了不一样的价值观之后，她说她受不了我讲那些丢人的事，让我以后不要讲给她听。

我其实是压抑的，也痛恨这种愚蠢的认识，可把她把自己逼到自己感觉一个绝望的处境，这是家庭里的内耗，尽管不想事情变成这样。

这就是真实的我啊，我已经习惯了把自己的真实想法讲给别人，然而我的母亲接受不了真实的我。如果我跟她去讲母亲需要接受孩子真实的样子，那么接下来她不自知的那些有毒的言语还是会让我无言以对。

也许那些拎得清的人可以做到不去联系自己的父母，不管现实怎样不堪，我总还是希望在这个短暂的生命力，让她尽可能去获得一些开心和安心，所以我会尝试去安抚她。

“父母的心在孩子上，孩子的心在石头上”，这是我成年之后能感受到我所在的这个社会的特征，但是我也能感受到我天生不属于只为自己利益而去忽视父母尤其母亲的人。所以我一直就觉得我必须得拿出三年的积蓄给与他们（工作之前就有这个想法），我跟她讲这个打算数次（提起的缘由有时候是为了让她安心和有安全感，为她今后的生活上需要的物质提供还算体面的保障；有时候是被她气的，我真的觉得我欠她的，对她照顾的责任是必须承担的而我赚钱的能力又实在有限，尽管有一点不舍得，但更多是心甘情愿。），这个告诉的行为本身让她误以为我是怕她连累我。

也许出自我的认识中，我是真的认为自己有这个责任并愿意承担这个责任，另外我也希望未来我在遇见那个人的时候，集当我可以为爱奋不顾身的时候，起码能给予我妈生活保障（我并非自私的人），但只要我讲出来，就会让有这个偏离事实的认识。

我和我妈的羁绊很深，这似乎要比一般的人和自己的母亲深的多，但这在我当前的年龄段越来越成为我的束缚和主要伤害我的源头，这很愚蠢，我不应该让这种事严重影响我注意力集中的能力。

我今后一定会把责任用嘴去说，避免和它去讲性取向这种东西（后者纯粹是我在自寻烦恼，是的，我会做愚蠢的事），不用我身边人多元的价值观来佐证我的观点（我不喜欢我的朋友被我牵连而受到中伤），因为这会让她们这种观点的人觉得我就是因为结交了这样的人才会变成这样，殊不知我们不存在这方面的相互影响，其实她跟应该去剪断我的网络，我的自我认同与和解应该得益于网络上获得的启示。

我希望即使我的生存环境如此艰难，我依然能心理健康和取得成长。我会尽力去活着即使去毁灭也高高兴兴。人最深的痛苦在有回旋余地或还未成定局的时候总不能被人很好理解的，因为大家觉得生活还是会照样向前走。所以我决定去写更多的文字而不是去直接交流，因为那样可能双方都没能经过充分思考且不留痕迹，而我也是比较健忘的。